With only 11 more weeks left of my program, I’ve been reflecting back on my choices in the past couple of years, as well as thinking about the future. I know that I have many more years ahead of me and this is very cliché, but these past few years have definitely been some of the best years of my life.
As scary as it is to make such a big life decision as completely changing career paths when you’re more than halfway done a program, it is also a very freeing and empowering moment. When I realized that accounting wasn’t going to work out for me and I wasn’t enjoying it like I thought I would, I had a panic attack. It was my first day back into a new semester, not even overwhelmed by work yet and I was freaking out about how I was going to make it through another year and a half. After many conversations with my sister and late night, half crying phone calls with a good friend, they both helped me realize that it wasn’t worth the stress to continue in a program that I didn’t absolutely love.
Looking back, leaving my program for a new school and new program was definitely what I needed and a great choice that I don’t regret at all. It was definitely hard though because I was leaving a place that I had grown to love over the years that I was there and was leaving behind some amazing friends and new ones that I had barely gotten to know yet. It was worth it though because I have never been happier and my friends have stuck with me and helped me throughout it all.
So far, this baking program has been amazing. I have made so many new friends, had some amazing chefs teach me, and even gained experience in the field. I spent half of my last semester doing an externship at a local restaurant. While it was a great experience, it did help me learn that a kitchen is not where I want to be once I’m out of school. The atmosphere is not something I enjoy. A bakery or café is more of what I’m hoping to find since that’s the type of place I would like to open on my own, many years down the road.
It’s crazy to think that in just a few months I’ll be done school and have to be out in the real world. I’ll have to be an adult and that kind of scares me. A lot. So many things go through my mind when I realize how soon that is. Where am I going to work? What if I can’t find a job? Do I want something long term or short term? What if I move and the job I have is no longer convenient? The questions don’t stop there, but you get the idea.
I obviously have a love for baking, but I’m still not sure what aspects of it are my favourite. Do I want to do a lot of bread? Maybe pastries and cookies of some sort? What about cakes? This is something that I need to figure out before looking for a job, because I don’t want to be stuck doing something that I don’t completely love.
I think I need to start visiting more bakeries and cafés. I’ll pretend that it’s for research, which it kind of is, and then everything I sample will be guilt-free. I figure that by checking out a variety of places, I can see what types of things they do and what parts of it I like, and then go from there. Plus, I’ll get to try copious amounts of delicious baked goods and that’s not a bad thing.
For now, I just need to focus on these next few months. Focus on finishing up my last semester as best as I can and stop worrying about the things that I can’t control. I know I promise this every time, but I will try and post more, especially any upcoming bakery adventures!